😢Undefined G-Center · Functional Human Design

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😢Undefined G-Center

Distorted - Not Self -

You may not fully understand your own identity, always seeking direction, a sense of belonging, and love in life. The constant yearning to find your purpose and place in the world can become all-consuming, leading to obsession and despair. You may try to emulate the lifestyles and behaviors of those around you in an effort to fill the emptiness inside you.

This one got me! This was one of the first to really stand out.

When I was a teacher, my identity in it was solid. I might not have liked what that fully entailed from an adult perspective - the politics, the bullshit, the game play. But close my classroom door and my room would become magical in my early years. My first year teaching was at Keller Middle School in Las Vegas. I was young and dumb and we had so much fun! We were learning together and we laughed A LOT!!

I have always been able to chameleon myself into communiities. At times, I thought of myself as a sociologist studying from inside the circle. But there was always a longing to really belong and know that's where I fit. Not where I fit myself into.

Some of this has been fun in this life and sometimes this has been really isolating and lonely. After I got married, I realized that it might not have been the being married I was attracted to. It might have been the illusion... the dream I was sold by Disney himself. The illusion of "being married" by married couples and the longing to be known by someone even if I didn't fully know me. That's how my husband hooked me. "I know you" but he didn't. Don't even know the tip of the iceberg about me. LOL SHEEET...

This one fascinates me. Who else has an undefined G-Center and what ways have you found to relish in the gifts instead of drowning in the shadow?

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