Human Design saved me! Testify!!! 🙌
Most of my life I was fucking distracted by finding and assigning meaning to everything.
That could have been nfluenced by the small family patriarchal cult I grew up in. 😂
Some people debate, others are always right, even if they are obviously incorrect. There’s special term for these folks, it’s called diabolically stupid.
How does this happen?
For me, it was too much religion and thinking that men and women are separate from each other. In other words, not the same kind of human.
With a heavy dose of Eve was a manipulator. Save yourself for marriage — AND, women will use and seduce you into having S-relations with them (thank you Pops).
The other half was having to be right for the sake of being right. It started young. “The book of Mormon is the only book that’s accurate” (LDS).
Later in life: the Bible is the only word of God. That was a tough one because everyone was arguing about whose Bible was better. Then it appears when digging deeper that Constantine the guy who wrote the book, clearly hated women. 🤦🏼♂️
I’m not bashing on Bibles or Book of Mormons just to bash-and-run. 😜
We all make choices in life and if spirituality or success has anything to do with being bigger than, the other bigger batter, badass — life’s a bust.
Like a broken down wagon and it’s your only transportation over the Rockies kind of bust.
Faking it until you make it is just another form of having to show answers before you’ve got them.
So what’s the cure for this diabolical stupidity wrapped in right and wrong thinking?
For me, it comes down to: know thyself.
The alchemy of knowing that fucking, self is the roadmap to peace and happiness.
Underneath of peace and happiness may lie some pretty ugly skeletons.
According to any given Human Design
chart.
Science meet spirit. 🤝
Great, now that we’ve met let’s talk about bitterness.
Bitterness was the skeleton in my closet that caused me to hold onto a grudge for 22 years, wreaking havoc on my relationships with my wife and kids.
I had to be right about something that I could never change. My parents disowned me! They took my sawmill! Wa, wa, wa, wa, waaaaaa….
And the deep buried internal thoughts:
I’m doomed for failure and not supported how will I ever support my family?
These deep internalized thoughts are what destroy our chances at joy and success.
When we sabotage and don’t know why that’s diabolical stupidity.
In human design, we can see that each of us have shadows. Look at these shadows closely and you’ll find what has held you back from your joy, peace, bliss, and success in life.
@Jes Divine has an exercise for this called chasing roots. Some of the stinky rot you’ll find in your roots, may be: confusion, frustration, bitterness, hopelessness.
In order to understand your gifts you gotta deal with these shadows.
Admit, forgive, receive, let go.
At first, seeing my design type was pure misery. But it also gave me a strange sense of peace, knowing there was light at the end of the tunnel.
You can only look at the truth of who you are so many times before you crack.
Luckily, and divinely I had an ex-wife who really knew trauma work and saw me trying my darndest to heal, and had the tenacity to call me out on my diabolical stupidity — in love. 🤯
And with a wisdom filled kind hearted 20-year-old son, my entire family, and humility, I’ve been nursed back to reality.
The results speak for themselves:
- I genuinely don’t hate women anymore. Even in the deeper parts. In fact, I believe them over men now (they have a better track record of having integrity)
- Listening and not having to be right has become one of my all-time favorites because I get to learn!
- Peace and passion are taking the drivers seat of life. My family seems to like me now and I serve with joy rather than drudgery.
Conclusion:
If you suffer from right wrong, good bad, bigger than, better than, smarter than; diabolical stupidity rules you and the cure is (drum roll) KNOW THYSELF.
No need to get all spiritual, go on Ayawaska retreats, or read a holy book until you’re blue in the face.
Sit with it; your emotions.
Your design.
The way you are.
Without all the extra.
No one is a throw away.
You are love.