A lot of people use music as an outlet for their emotional state. Sometimes that can work out counterintuitive. Meaning that if you are trying to express an emotion through music, sometimes it’s all the other things around you that jumps into the music.
A good exercise that can actually lead to emotional loaded music is trying to describe something in nature, a frog, a night sky, conflict somewhere. Something that is not specific to your situation can sometimes lead to music describing how you feel about what you’re trying to describe in the music and Hocus Pocus you are now making music from an emotional place. Also, that can make you stop thinking about samples or cleaning up your desktop. Maybe type down some words, even if you make instrumental music.
Try it. I’m sure it will work.