This was fun. Acknowledging that C-PTSD may never fully leave me, I had a big realisation this morning connected to this topic. I have denied myself literally nothing in my life. The realisation is that this applies to everything that I have or have had an unhealthy relationship with. Food, money, alcohol…Why? Because my childhood was one big never ending denial. The question arising for me is, to ask myself why more often and to pause to check in on if it’s really what I need.
Where this doesn’t apply is anything concerning vulnerability.
What I really desire is to ask for what I need from others more often. To stop withholding asking for what I need because to be vulnerable was never safe as a child but that’s not true now.
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