One thing I never expected about becoming a parent was how much my relationship with money would change.
Before my son was born, I didn't have much of it. But strangely, it almost never bothered me.
I had time.
I could disappear for a weekend to shoot a film, spend an afternoon writing, or close a bar on a Monday night just because I felt like it. That freedom made up for a lot.
After becoming a father, most of that freedom disappeared. And that's when money suddenly started feeling incredibly important. I wasn't dreaming about a bigger house or a nicer car. I just wanted a way to create a little more breathing room.
Without really noticing it, I stopped asking myself what I wanted to create and started asking what people would be willing to pay for.
At first, it felt like the responsible thing to do.
Somewhere along the way, I noticed that my work no longer felt like it belonged to the person who had wanted to make movies in the first place.
I thought I was trying to solve a money problem.
In reality, I was slowly creating a meaning problem.