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Piggybacking off my last post
Here’s one of my most recent “art vomits” 🤮
I was putting a ton of pressure on myself to make my dogs portraits perfect because they’re my sweet good boys and last year I focused a lot on doing memorial pet portraits for people that had lost their best friends recently. My furry friends are still with us and I think I was putting even more pressure on myself because I want to hang them up on my walls while they’re still with us for my family to enjoy and appreciate more while we still have them around.
This immense pressure I was putting on those portraits to make them perfect had me locked up and they sat in my studio half finished and glaring at me with judgement 🫠
I’ve been dealing with quite a bit of stress from balancing work, family life, and trying to find time for myself as well. Winters also tend to be hard for me and the anxiety was building as I passed these half finished portraits each day, wanting so desperately to complete them but feeling bound by other responsibilities.
So I decided to art vomit, get that stuff unstuck from my body and let it out on the canvas.
No expectations.
No regrets.
Just release and appreciation for allowing myself to make some “ugly” art.
I began with the most intense feeling of darkness, a black background then the anger and frustration, red thrown at the canvas and some quick chaotic brush strokes. Then some guilt release with some orange, blue and purples to represent the racing thoughts and scattered mind.
Again, no expectations, just release of these emotions though my hand so that I could look at it and say “that’s where I left that, it no longer lives inside of me, it lives there on the canvas and I can move past it now”
I felt better. It opened up a channel to create again and shortly after I got back into the final details of my portraits.
I hung this piece in my art show this month, put my whole vulnerable self out into the world, wrote a short description of why I created the piece and entitled it “anxiety/fight or flight”
It’s out there now and I have no regrets about it because it is a true expression of myself and my life and a relatable experience with all that’s going on in this country right now. It may not sell but at least it’s out there so that someone also experiencing similar feelings might not feel alone in the battle. That, I am proud of.
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