Hi, Hope you are doing well!
I’m experiencing a very strange feeling today and could use some help understanding it better. Today has been one of the worst days of my life—definitely in the top five. My personal life is in turmoil, and the situation is incredibly confusing. It should be causing me a lot of pain because I haven't been treated well in my relationship for over a year. Yet, despite all this, after a heavy session with my counselor, I feel surprisingly okay. In fact, I feel like things might miraculously get better.
I’ve decided to leave the outcome to fate, and I don't feel as weighed down as I normally would. I feel functional, which is not something I usually experience in these circumstances. It’s as if I believe that this relationship will improve, or that something better is on the horizon.
But this feeling scares me. Am I becoming numb and shutting down my emotions, or have I somehow become incredibly positive, which is not typical for me? Or is this something else entirely?
Could someone help me figure out the right questions to ask myself so I can understand if this is truly a "good" feeling? I know this sounds confusing, but it's as confusing as what I'm feeling right now. Sorry!
Thank you in advance!