I used to drink
Now I sink softer
Fetty hits like
God forgot he already punished me
Warm butter, toe tag tango
The world fades like watching a goodbye
walk away
People talk about overdoses
Like they're tragedies
But some of us call that mercy
She came over wearing a leather jacket
And last months shame
We didn't talk
Just nods and skin and
The flick of the foil
We didn't fuck to feel good
We fucked to feel less
Her body curled around mine
Like a comma in a sentence
We never wanted to finish
I tasted ashes in her kiss
She said,
"You ever feel like dying's the only thing
That makes sense anymore?"
I didn't answer
Just handed her the pipe and watched the smoke
Crawl into her lungs like a lie that loves you
We laid there after, high but still hollow
Sometimes the closest you get to peace
Is not caring if you wake up.