19d (edited) • WEEKLY RITUAL LETTER
The Weekly Ritual Letter
Aimee Bluemoon Letter for you🫶
When life makes you stop
Whattupp buttercup…so this week has been one of those weeks where I keep trying to make sense of it and every time I try to explain it cleanly I realise it just isn’t a clean thing, like nothing about it has been clean or linear or organised in the way my mind usually wants things to be, it’s been this weird unfolding where I thought I was stuck, like actually stuck, like “I can’t move forward until this one thing changes” stuck, and I kept looping on that idea that I need my car back and I need things to be easier and I need things to be faster and I need things to be more normal, but then I’d stop and look at what I was actually doing in my days and it didn’t match the story I was telling myself at all, because I’m still building, still filming, still replying to thousands of messages, still moving boxes, still making decisions about the land and the build and the next steps and the money and the orders and everything that’s happening all at once, and it started to feel really strange because the internal narrative was “I’m stuck” but the external reality was “I’m actually doing more than I’ve ever done in my life”, and I think that disconnect is what started to really mess with my head a bit this week in a good way and a confronting way at the same time because I started noticing how often I label something as stuck when what’s actually happening is I’m just not moving in the way I used to move when I had a car and a city rhythm and constant stimulation and constant business that made me feel like movement equals progress.
But out here it’s different, everything takes longer, everything is slower, even forgetting something turns into a whole walk back and forth and I get exhausted and frustrated and I still want to go for a drive and blast music and just feel that release of motion, and I do miss that, I really do, but at the same time I’ve also been sitting in this other layer underneath it all where I’ve realised I’ve saved so much money not driving everywhere, not going into town just because I can, not filling time with movement for the sake of movement, and that money has actually gone into things that are physically building my life here, like gutters and roofing and the actual structure of this space that I’m creating, and it’s weird because I didn’t plan that as a “strategy”, it just happened because I was forced into stillness in a way I didn’t choose, and I think that’s where the emotional tension of this week has been sitting, because I don’t love it. I still feel frustrated by it. I still feel that resistance rise up when I forget something and have to walk all the way back or when I think about how long it’s taking for car parts to arrive or how different it is here compared to city life where things get fixed in a day or two and everything moves quickly and you can just decide to go somewhere and be there in ten minutes.
I’m also not falling apart in it, I’m not panicking every day, I’m not spiralling the way I thought I might, and instead I’ve been sitting in this really uncomfortable middle ground of feeling everything at once, like frustration and gratitude and exhaustion and excitement and fear about money and pride about what I’ve built and uncertainty about what’s next and this deep underlying hope that it’s all actually going somewhere even when I can’t fully see it yet.
That’s been the biggest thing this week, not one single emotion but all of them layered on top of each other all the time, and I think I’ve had to accept that I don’t actually have one emotional response to anything, I just have all of them at once and I move through them as they come up, and even something as simple as standing on the front deck I built became this moment where I was like oh wow, this is actually real, like this thing didn’t exist and now it does and I built it and I can stand on it and look out and see the space I’m creating and realise that so many of the things I thought I wouldn’t be able to afford or access actually became possible because I went a different way.
That’s been sitting with me too, this idea that I thought I was limited but I wasn’t necessarily limited, I was just following a different structure than what I thought I needed to follow, and then there’s the social media side of it which is its own strange reality where suddenly thousands of people are arriving in my space at once and I’m trying to respond and stay present and not lose myself in the phone while also not ignoring people who are genuinely connecting with what I’m sharing, and I’ve been very aware of how much time I’m spending in that space and how strange it feels to go from almost no visibility to a lot of visibility very quickly and still trying to stay grounded in what is real versus what is performance versus what is just me talking into a camera in the bush trying to make sense of my own life while other people are watching it unfold.
I think underneath all of that the actual lesson this week has been this slow realisation that I’m not actually in control in the way I think I am, like I can organise and plan and try to structure everything but life still just does what it does and I either fight it or I work with it, and this week I’ve definitely fought it in moments and I’ve definitely surrendered in moments and I think both have been necessary because I don’t think surrender is just a calm spiritual thing, I think sometimes surrender is just finally getting tired enough to stop pushing against what is already happening.
I’ve been thinking a lot about that in relation to child’s pose and 4by4 rhythm breathe and even the meditation I recorded because all of them are basically teaching the same thing in different ways: like child’s pose is physically putting your body into a position where you cannot hold everything anymore, 4by4 breathing is literally training you to pause in both fullness and emptiness, in the inhale and the exhale, in the holding and the releasing, and the meditation is just giving yourself five minutes where you stop trying to fix your entire life and just exist without solving anything.
That’s what this week has really been about for me, not solving, not fixing, not rushing to the next thing, just being in the pause that I didn’t choose and slowly starting to realise that maybe the pause isn’t something I need to escape from as fast as possible, maybe it’s actually part of what’s building everything underneath me while I feel like nothing is moving fast enough, and I don’t know, I still want my car back, I still want things to speed up in certain ways, I still have all those human reactions to it, but I also can’t ignore the fact that something in me has shifted this week and I can feel it even while I’m frustrated, it’s like I’ve stopped believing that movement is the only form of progress, and I think that’s probably the thing I’m carrying into next week, this strange mix of wanting more and also trusting what’s already here, even if I don’t fully understand it yet, even if I don’t fully like it yet, even if I’m still in it rather than at the end of it, and maybe that’s what this whole thing is, not a story with a clear lesson at the end, but just a life that keeps unfolding while I’m inside it trying to make sense of it as I go.
Around the Bush This Week
Behind the scenes, this week looked like:
- Thousands of new people arriving at once
- Replying to messages while trying not to lose presence in it all
- Building, filming, and creating while feeling overwhelmed and deeply grateful at the same time
- A broken rhythm with no car, and a new rhythm being forced into existence
- Moments of frustration mixed with moments of unexpected clarity
- Standing on a front deck that didn’t exist before and realising: this is real
Nothing about it was clean. Everything about it was alive.
THE RITUALS
Meditation — When Life Makes You Slow Down
This week’s meditation is about surrendering to the pause you didn’t choose. Not fixing. Not solving. Not forcing your way forward. Just allowing yourself to exist inside the moment you’re already in.
Yoga — Child’s Pose
This week’s physical practice is Child’s Pose. A reminder that softness is not weakness. It is the body’s way of saying: I can stop holding everything for a moment.
Breathwork — 4 count rhythm breathing
This week’s breath practice is 4 count rhythm breath. A rhythm of pause, presence, and nervous system regulation. It teaches you something simple but powerful: You are safe in the inhale. You are safe in the exhale. And you are safe in the pause between both.
Oracle Card of the Week
Seeking guidance: Surrender
This week’s oracle message is: The pause is not punishment. It is preparation.
You can find these rituals inside the Bluemoon School → Weekly Ritual Section.
Meditation Includes: video lesson: guided voice + Video meditation
Yoga Includes: video lesson: explanation + physical demonstration
Breath Work Includes: Includes: video lesson: explanation + guided practice
Oracle Card Includes: Includes: video of card pull + picture of the reading from the book
Bluemoon School Classroom Weekly Highlights
The Nervous System Reset Collection. Tiny courses. Big shifts. 10-15 minutes. Real change. Not every problem needs a six-week program. Sometimes you just need a pattern interrupt. A reset. A moment to pause long enough to hear yourself again. These quick written courses are designed for those moments when life feels overwhelming, emotions are running high, and you can’t quite see your next step. Turn fear of change into curiosity. Transform negative self talk into supportive inner dialogue. Shift from rushing and survival mode into calm presence. Move from self criticism into self compassion. Reclaim your inner peace when the outside world feels chaotic.
Energetics of Next Week
Next week feels like continuation rather than resolution. Things are still moving slowly in the physical world. But internally, something is reorganising. Less forcing. More observing. Less rushing forward. More noticing what is already unfolding. There’s still uncertainty. Still logistics. Still waiting. But also a quiet trust building underneath it all that didn’t feel as strong before.
Last thoughts
If this week felt like a pause you didn’t choose…Maybe next week isn’t about escaping it. Maybe it’s about learning how to move inside it differently.
Thank you for being here. For reading. For watching. For surrendering. Cheers to you. I’ll meet you back here next Friday. Same ritual. Same rhythm. Different layer. Different time. Different letter.
Love always
Aimee🧚♂️💜🩵🙏
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