First Time Confessing · Blssed Influence

First Time Confessing

This morning I was hit with temptation, I like getting up early being productive eating a good breakfast, meditating, praying, reading the word stretching getting a workout, showering etc. to start off my day before school and I had school but my sisters had dermatologist apts so I was going in late and I’ve been clean for about 5-6 days now and I get the random thought in my head and it kept roaming in my head even after I said no but I didn’t fall into temptation and got through the day til after school around 4 I got home had a snack played my video game for 20 minutes before getting dressed and getting back to it after the 20 minutes I turned my game off and went to get dressed and out of nowhere the thought pops in my head again as I was getting in the room looking on my phone on YouTube for some videos to listen to as I workout then I got hit I said no to myself and I told myself I am not restarting again and have promised to God I wasn’t going to again and it happened I feel guilty again it happens everytime and I know the feeling by now and it’s not worth it I have these random times were I get tempted I’ll be a month free 2 months and out of nowhere I’ll get attacked God was testing my obedience I’ve noticed I’ve been being prideful from watching the first 3 videos and took notes I was trying to fight it on my own with my own strength for most of th part yes I would ask God but I wouldn’t take the time to leave the room pick up a Bible do sum push ups wake up and go to God and truly ask for help to flee the demons away you can’t do it alone every loss isn’t a loss it’s a lesson and God testing you if you didn’t fail and fall into any sin or temptation why would you speak to God and pray some people only go to God when they ask for things and ask for help with sin but when do you truly take time to spend with him and I struggle with this as well love yall stay strong have a blessed day if you guys had any advice if love to hear sorry if some of this doesn’t make sense it’s my first time saying what’s on my chest and truly confessing sin and what’s on my mind thank you for reading again God bless and have an amazing day🙏🏼💪🏼.

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