Do Not Tempt The Lord · Blssed Influence

Do Not Tempt The Lord

Today is what you call a miracle. My life has been running in circles. SAT, worried parents, inner battle with lust, drivers ed, AP testing, working out, eating, a bunch of stuff I’ll have to deal with sooner or later. I sat down in my room grabbed my Bible and began reading Isiah. Lust climbs in I rebuke it, the devil tries to distract me, hungry whatever whatever. Out of nowhere my 6 year old self pops inside my head. He’s like “Oh my God Jack can we play together?” It probably has something to do with when I was younger and I didn’t have any friends. My parents ingrained education into our brains and was the center of everything. If you get into a good college and get a good degree your life is all set and then finally you can relax and play. My brother lived under this core value of ‘family’ for a lot longer than I have. As he got older he didn’t get to play with me anymore so I just kicked soccer balls and ran out of rage. Looking back I began crying because it felt like going back to work and be smarter than the person next to you so you can make your parents proud. I understand the importance of education and of course my family but it was prioritizing a grade (literal numbers and letters) over the love of the entire relationship we had (and will still have with help of God). No it should I’m studying hard because my parents love me and are proud of me. No it should be I’m reading and worshipping my lord because he loves us. Do you understand what we’re doing to each other? Don’t find the right person to marry, LOVE HIM OR HER.

Anyway I started sobbing like a baby my mom walked in she stared at me for a bit and ignored me. I was like “Dang my mom don’t love me. Nobody cares that I’m Christian even though I tried so hard to keep I together. To see everyone as if they were Jesus.” Ive prayed for my family over and over. I’m glad, they know the purpose of the cross and resurrection. The seed has been planted. We demand for the things God has promised us because he have his only son to SEAL the DEAL. It’s rightful we be blessed with it right? Yes but patience is key. I’m not going to play around and be like yeah it’s a stick and a carrot… you and God I guess. Dude he wants to bless us. LIKE BAD. He didn’t even spare his own son what else shall he prosper us with?

O’ you if little faith! You will see the lord! I literally found the place I’d be persecuted for preaching the gospels. The lords plan always.. always prevails. And I understand our wrestle with God is also important each one of us, my mother, my brother, father, grandpa, and my entire family shall have their very own testimonies to God. How wonderful! Be patient and continue to SHOW God through the way you act through rough times and tribulations. GROW through them, GLORY in tribulations and temptation (James 1:2)

So my ‘deal’ with God was, burning the Bible if I didn’t see Christ in a dream or something or anything that told me to stop burning it (and he obviously told me to stop and post this testimony AMEEEEN). I take like a semi awake nap for fifty minutes. In crying in my Bible pillow after reading psalms 23 The lord is my shepherd I shall not want…

I walk downstairs get a lighter with my Bible, throw on my blue cross, actually cleaned up my room and I am like what am I even going to do without God? Like what am I even going to live for other than sex and power and whatever else my flesh desires? I’m at the garden in my backyard. I flip to my favorite verse or chapter Mathew 6:25. I’m reading I’m crying, I’m burning tiny increments of pages. And I just can’t do it. My heart is in the lords it belongs to him. I just can’t burn it. I look back at my Bible and a note (not by accident) that I wrote a while back is there ““He who finds his life will lose it and he who loses his life for my sake will find it.” How else will you die if you don’t die for Christ? Is dying for someone not the greatest act of love? .. I want to die for Christ so please..” This note was a brain spark moment for me but also a plead to God. I didn’t know I was pleading to myself at the end. The wind (God) flips the page to Mathew 7:23 the “scariest verse of all time” and of course… Mathew 4:7 “You shall not tempt the Lord our God.” BOOM I’m in shock I’m tempting the lord to reveal himself otherwise I’d burn the Bible. Great! For we should never intentionally expose ourselves to danger (anything closely to God he and you value) in order to test or prove Gods protection.

I repent thank God I did. Truly blessed are you when they rebuke and persecute you and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for my sake. Yes that is true to the extent of family. Love them despite their evil Amen I know it’s rushed tysm for reading have a blessed day O my soul.

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