Confession · Blssed Influence

Confession

I have just officially hit 2 months free recently but today something happened I had a long day at school just fried my brain I was really tired then went home was doing sum research getting my stuff I had to done my to do list stuff on my schedule like going on a walk Bible study watch film for basketball and football etc. then I had work from 4:45-8:15 came home crazy tired but I needed to get a workout in because I couldn’t even get 2 I needed one so did it went up and while I was in the shower the thought popped up and it has before but this time it was sitting for longer and I feel like I entertained it by talking to myself on how I beat it and what advice I would give to others after got out did my routine then went on to insta for a lil watching sum basketball and football drills I could do and motivational videos on my fyp never get anything lustful then a video pops up I don’t feel excited anymore like my brain doesn’t feed into it but it’s my flesh and I felt lost again and fed in but I know the journey isn’t over it happened for a reason and there’s a reason why it happened but it still hurts of course I feel the guilt I once did I’ve been obedient and now idk how i feel towards God I know just gotta keep working staying consistent push thru keep getting 1% better and just talking to God and spending time with him growing with him more but I haven’t been on Skool for a while after the first month of being free I didn’t feel like I need to be on my phone but I ask for prayers please and for any advice thank you and God bless🙏🏼

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