Letter 16 💌 · Radiyyah Muslim Growth

Letter 16 💌

Assalam o alaikum!

Brothers and sisters!

A brother 19 needs your help

“I have been here like 3 times but didn’t write anything because it seems weak, and also like I am not trusting Allah, so I am writing this to get authentic advice, lie interpretation of verses or Hadiths or any quote of scolaire Like 2 months ago a starting making money from a local business, I didn’t wanted to start a job because I have a Hadith of praying in a mosque, so a job will take that from me, the business took a while to get of the floor but 2 months ago a made real money, not that much but enough, my family found out and now I have to pay.. every month and contribute to a lot of stuff, the problem is I have my own goals and I need to get stuff done, I started this business for those things, for umrah, to fund other businesses and to do hijrah not only that but a business isn’t stable income, last month wasn’t good, and on top of that I also have to pay my studies, I don’t want to break down in front of them, they want me to help my mother go to Pakistan to get involved in her brother marriage, I already give money to my mother I have nothing against that, I would never not give back to my mother, but here I am at a lack of knowledge, I don’t know if I should give because she is my mother or not because she is shi’a and her brother as well.., so I am sending her to. Environment of shirk and a lot of messed up stuff, the same is for the marriage of my sister, she is Sunni like me but the Pakistani culture has a lot of haram, not only that but I feel like I don’t fit with them, I try to avoid haram and innovation, they make full of me and call me qari, when I entre the room I some because the clown everyone makes fun off, alhamduillah I sametimes do get the silence to share my views on stuff and this way I can get some dawah in, but I really feel alone most of the time, as a Pakistani in France I also don’t have friends, I speak French and all, I talk to people but I am never the first option because I am too religious to them I have found some religious friends but even them, they are not really my friends, we talk and it’s all, I can’t make plans, I am a boring company, I am used always be in the first row now… I am close to always last, to add to all of that I also suffer with lust, i workout and eat well so my test is out the roof, i wake up and feel it, and during the day as well I just try to occupy myself, I don’t need advise on this, i need advice on the first part, what do I do with wealth, kids at 17 have the driving permit that there parents pay, and I dont, I don’t have the money because I have to pay my parents, all of this and I get 0 privacy, I don’t have a room, I sleep in the guest area connected to all the rooms and the door that leads outside the house I can’t sleep until everyone is a sleep, I want to follow the sunnah and sleep after Isha and wake up for tahajjud but this makes it hard I want to read Quran after fajr but I can’t turn on the lights, This makes me feel really weak and feminine, I don’t Want to tap submit,… I don’t want to read it back to correct the errors sorry, it makes me cringe

Be kind while replying and try not to judge a brother on deen struggling. No one is a saint, be humble🤍

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JazakAllah Khair🤎

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Letter 16 💌