"If"
I wonder what I would say if given the chance,
would I hold my head up high and take a stance,
would I make myself small just to avoid a fight,
or stand up for myself, showing my true might.
I wonder what I would do if I saw you in town,
would I look into your eyes and give you a frown,
would I turn and run away, holding my emotions in,
or call you out in public for all of your terrible sins.
I wonder what I'd feel if you truly said "I'm sorry",
would my eyes fill up with tears and become quite starry,
or would I face you confidently while sternly saying "Too late",
and walk away leaving you to deal with your own fate.
I wonder what I'll feel like in a few years,
will I look upon the pain still, spilling more tears,
or will it all merely become a fleeting thought,
swimming past the memory net without getting caught.
I wonder what I'll think of as I lay upon my deathbed,
will I ponder all of the lies that you once said,
painstakingly going over them, feeling hurt once again,
or see that leaving you was when my life's peace began.
I know what I would do if I truly let go,
I would heal and feel in my heart that I fully know,
I'm perfectly capable of living this life contently alone,
for the truth of who you are, you've repeatedly shown.
©️ Amy Lynn 4/11/26