My creativity and clarity has been unlocked…I have that calmer and safer feeling on the inside and yesterday I decided to spend the day enjoying life and spend some money on myself. So I took myself out to a restaurant and wine tasting. I spent $40 in total and that included the tip too! The food was delicious, I made new friends, got new ideas and felt recharged.

In my meditation practice something came up for me. Deep down I have always felt like I have been a burden on my parents. I have subconsciously taken this with me into my marriage. That has been blocking me from achieving my dre life which includes a career in the luxury space and having children. My dad used to frequently say, “I would be a millionaire if I didn’t have children”. Both of my parents argue and complain all the time about everything. I did not realize how much I had internalized these messages. Until now. I have subconsciously tried to make myself less visible meaning I would require less. Less attention, less emotion, empathy and care … less money. Now I am wondering what can I do to replace that feeling and fill myself up?

I noticed that one of my triggers is around asking for money. Does anyone else experience this ? And under what circumstances? I feel like I have to do something huge in order to earn or deserve the money.

While practicing my expansion meditation, I felt like something was pushing back against my shoulders like I was doing a resistance workout. Just an observation but it felt very real. I’ll continue to focus on my breathing and go back to another meditation practice later today.

Wow! That was quick ! After the call, I reached out to invite my first two guests to my podcast. Not only they said yes, they are sponsoring me with products and one is going to be my business and education space mentor 🙌🏽. She herself is rich and regulated just hearing her voice.