I truly quit playing chess. I have no motivation whatsoever to even boot up a game. Maybe I've outgrown chess, as it never was truly my passion, but rather just a coping mechanism to feel like I had something going in my life, when I was just destroying myself from within, having been addicted to porn (more specifically to the pmo cycle (porn, masturbation, orgasm)). This was my secret. That's why this year I'm different from all the previous 12 years (yes, the addiction sticked to me for that long, just because it became my comfort zone). I feel like any "passion" or "new hobby" I found in the past 12 yeard, was just a coping mechanism to cope with the shame and loneliness that that addiction caused. End of last year I decided to cut it off and out porn from life. From that moment, I took back control of my life, one small step at a time. Life has truly got back its colors. I admit I've relapsed a dozen times more or less, in this last 9+ months. Yet, I'm not ashamed of it, since I know it was a part of the healing process. One last thing before I end writing this post. If you ever will have or had this experience with porn, please stop the first time. It's something that ruins you from the inside, act on it before it's too late. The will to change should come from within you, cause this is a battle and a war that can only be won by ourselves. No amount of therapy will ever fix this kind of addiction. Signing out

Completely closed my chess account. Deleted my alt email I used for it. The final thing from my past has been willingly taken out of my life. This journey in the chess world comes to a full end today. It was nice having had that "passion". I didn't enjoy it as I would have liked to, but that was only my fault, as we know by now. Still, it changed my viewpoint on things, and indeed it boosted some of my brain abilities. Yet, it was empty of meaning, used only as a coping mechanism for what we've already discussed about. I'll still post chess news and videos, as I still am the news anchor in this community for most of the things that happen in the chess world. Don't cry because it ended; smile because it happened.

first, create a code install a chess move detecting system and 64 LED lights inside the chessboard make sure each LED light is placed in each square so when someone pulls out checkmate it detects the code and triggers the LED light to activate the cool auras around the piece that checkmates the opponent and then put the same code inside a system that can use telekinetic levitation to fly, and install the voice detector inside, and put them all in chess pieces so when someone says the move like "nf3', the chess pieces fly into the square without moving by hand last step: install a rule sensor and detector, if the chessmove detector detects a move, the rule sensor will check if its wrong or not. if its wrong, it will trigger the code to activate the flying system to get back to the previous move so the players can fix it now you just unlocked another chess mode: futuristic chess i hope scientists and engineers can develop this in reality ask me anything for more questions

Not chess related but today's is indeed a pretty special day. Although today's almost ending (25th Sep) But still, Happy Mid Autumn Festival everyone. Hope today you are happy and safe.

26/9 Actually thank you all for respecting me and talking to me a lot. And I'm happy to tell you that today is actually my birthday 🎂 (yes I'm old now) Tysm for all the conversations. If you have anything wanna tell me specifically or something wanna say for a long time but never told me then type it out. I will read.