Anyone want to join in a group fast? Im thinking start Thursday evening to Friday. From my experience in the past, always found it more soothing when I know others are doing it too. Post a comment if you're in.

Everything in life begins with relationships...everything is how we show up in relation to something else. Most of all ourselves. If we are out of alignment or incongruent with what we value and believe it is going to leak out, often in ways that we aren't aware of or in control of. Now, you have to know what you value first, so that can be what to get curious about first. Do I value myself? ALL of myself? Do I value my wife, my partner, my kids? Do I value mu humility and accept that fact that it is not about me? To express some of my processing, I have been in deep contemplation and reflection on this of late, and this week is a beautiful deep dive into it as well. So, if I lean into challenge 1 - I took my family to church on Sunday, it is the first time I have gone in 21 years, it was also the first time that I chose to go 100% not from obligation but because I wholeheartedly wanted to. I want to start from scratch and learn everything over again. There is a new curiosity, a new fire, a new intrigue and a new desire welling up in me. I have struggled in the past to voice my convictions, my beliefs or values - mostly because I didn't know what they were. I have also never thought that it was "cool" to be a Christian - aren't they always a bunch of crusty old white dudes who are boring as fuck? Well, I don't really care what the opinions are, I know what is in my heart and to share honestly in this moment is to say that I am seeking a deeper relationship with God, with my brothers, with my wife, with my son and with myself. I want to shine as bright as I can. I have realized that it isn't the darkness of myself that I have been afraid of all of these years, I know that intimately well and it is also cunning and likes to keep me down there to constantly find new nooks and crannies. All of that is good and there is a place for it which is a whole other topic. I have realized that I am afraid of my light and how my purpose can shine through, to be a vessel for light and love, which doesn't come from me, it comes from God.

Last week I meditated 15 mins/day for most of the week. Really helped clear my mind, reset my emotions and ground my state. The workouts suffered since I got sick and just didn't have the energy, tried to get out for some sprints and walking at least though. This week I initiated a call with my sister and brother-in-law, inviting them to move their family from Hawaii to our home in Michigan as an extended sabbatical/ financial launchpad. I have only just realized how much of a difficult financial position they are in right now, partially as a result of my sister having her 3rd child and being unable to work full time. But they have also been chronically living beyond their means. Naturally, this also opened up other difficult conversations between my Mom (who has been supplementing their income for a few months), my wife (her concerns about how it will all play out), and I about how to best help them, our boundaries, etc. I've held a strong frame of support through most the conversations, in part because I hold gratitude for all the times I was similarly supported by family, friends, and strangers over the years.

Since I was out of town till Monday celebrating my birthday with the family, I gave myself a pass to not do any workouts. But then I kept making excuses through Wednesday. Ended up going to bed/waking up early which was the shift I needed; it was easy to head outside this morning, warmup on the local trail, and then do 6 rounds of 30 second sprints with 90 seconds rest in between. I tend to be a night owl, and that was a great reminder of the benefits of the weekday early wake-up.

Hey yall, here some update from my challenges so far: Something I used to loved - not sure what the timeframe on this was. But I have not done any kind of sparring in 6 months or so since being on the road. A bit of the challenge is finding people to do it with. With intention, was able to get 1 ticked off then planning another session this wknd. New and different - I had a bit of a mental battle with this one, as it involved a great deal of fear of the unknown and trust actually move forward. But I did a 60ft aussie rappel into some water. This also served as my "last time I felt alive" prompt. Some great reflections on the awareness of my sensations during this endeavor. Avoiding - With doing a lot of movement practices, I will avoid recovery like the plague. The challenge for me was to do multiple rounds of fascia flossing (rolling out my body, specifically my IT band). Its definitely a type of pain that teaches me more every time plus I always feel more relaxed and less tense afterwards. A bit low energy this week on my end , but ready to keep momentum going. Challenge for next week is to make the call! And lean in