Struggles 4 struggles: 1. As a new mom an honest fear of mine as I entered this chapterĀ has been losing my identity. After building a very strong sense of self, career, and independence, I feared how much my life and body would change. I have always been confident and very self aware. At one point in my life, the thought of losing my individuality and freedom made me sadly not want kids. Losing my mother 12 years ago also made me not want children. Navigating this transition into motherhood while still feeling connected to myself is something I will learn to navigate moving forward. 1. At my core I have always held high expectations of myself. I am a high intensity person and I donāt stop till I achieve what I want. One of my struggles is learning moderation and balance. Iāve always had an all-or-nothing personality from growing up in competitive sports and high-pressure environments. I naturally would push myself to extreme exhaustion at all cost to achieve anything. For example I once ran 100 miles in 7 days to lose weight for a show. 1. Challenge 3: Putting too much pressure on myself to meet high expectations even during this season of life that requires softness, rest, and grace. I struggle with learning how to slow down when my mindset has always been to do more, be more, achieve more. I just ultimately fear mediocrity in every aspect. Challenge 4. Time management: Iāve always controlled my time, my discipline, my results. I donāt make excusesāI executeā¦But this season? Itās different I built my life and career on discipline, structure and control. Iām not one who struggles with consistency. Iāve always done whatever it takes no matter what .. some days I canāt find time to eat let alone train. Stepping into motherhood while holding onto my goals has been one of the hardest Transitions. Some days I even forget to eat. 5 Contrasting wins: 1. What Iām learning is identity isnāt lost in motherhood itās rebuilt in it. Im completely rewiredāconstantly learning and expanding who I am and getting to know this new version of me. What I feared would take from me is actually giving me one of the greatest gifts Iāve never had before.