The last three weeks had been so good for me. I was building momentum, feeling like I was finally starting to get it. And then, on the very last day, I messed it all up. One bad day was enough to undo the work of 14 good ones, and now Iām left sitting here not knowing what to do next.I'm so stupid its unbelievable. What hurts the most is that I had 14 ATD days over $600 locked in. I was literally one more day of $600 away from securing a $2,500 payout...just one day away from freedom. I canāt get that out of my head. It was going to be my first ever payout. What makes it worse is knowing I wonāt be able to buy another eval now. I got lucky with the giveaway once, and in my head I really believed this was going to be it for me. That belief carried me, and maybe thatās why it stings so much now. Iād even started planning how I was going to split that payout between new evals, expenses, and savings, like it was finally happening. And now⦠I just feel devastated. I feel stupid for throwing it away on tilt, for not having the patience to wait just a few more days. This was a DTF account, and I shouldāve protected it better. Iām ashamed of myself and Iām sorry, guys. Right now I just feel tired. Tired of messing up when it mattered, tired of watching progress get washed away in a single bad day. I donāt know what to do next.