What I want to share is that, yes, for a while, maybe 15 years, I was like this too. Actually, I knew what I should do, but I couldn't bring myself to do it, and because of the illness I was going through, I had no choice but to turn to myself. And thank God, yes, I embarked on this path. Everyone above has given very valuable advice, invaluable advice. Thinking about who you are and what you serve—I truly believe what @evan carmichael explains in his videos—and I believe that by staying in the flow of service, everything will mature over time. A seed doesn't grow alone; seasons, soil, water, wind, etc., are all factors involved. This path is called the path of patience. I believe the fruit will be beautiful, and I thank @Evan Carmichael for reminding me of this philosophy. There's a story in Turkey: One day, a scholar fell off a donkey and was walking along. When someone said, "Wait, let's get you a doctor," the scholar replied, "No, bring me someone who has fallen off a donkey; only they can understand my problem." Sometimes, just being understood gives a person the strength to know what to do.