Ok I have to share this because I don’t know where else to write it. I did a crazy thing. I’ll set the scene. 2 nights ago I was sitting in the dark in my one year olds bedroom rocking her to sleep, she took a while to go off to sleep so I was probably in there for 30 mins or so without my phone. During that time I came up with a bit of a ludicrous plan. My husband’s (particularly but also me I guess) biggest source of stress is our mortgage. Back in the summer, we moved house to downsize our mortgage. We knocked about 100k off it. Now I’ve come up with a challenge for us to clear the whole thing in 12 months. We started yesterday, which was my birthday, so by my 36th birthday I want it gone. How? Any means, skills, creativity we have got. I have digital skills, my husband has niche knowledge on model aeroplanes, trains & cars. We have our events business. Etc. So. I put it on TikTok didn’t I? And overnight the video has had over 7k views & we’ve got over 100 followers. So I guess we’re really gonna do this then?! Let’s see how much of our £222k mortgage we can banish in a year! Eek. Slightly random & off-topic - but I figured some of you might enjoy a peek into my crazy mind hehe

I was pondering this morning on whether me wanting something for myself during my motherhood season of life makes me ungrateful. And I’ve decided it doesn’t. I can love my kids with my whole heart AND crave purpose, creativity and fulfilment outside of motherhood. It isn’t one or the other. It isn’t kids or ambition. Actually I think they’re connected. A mum who is alive & joyful raises kids who believe joy is normal. A mum who shares her entrepreneurship with her kids, well maybe she’s raising little entrepreneurs? All this to say, if you’re like me & the guilt occasionally seeps through the cracks, push it back down. You deserve this, and your kids will thank you for it 🩷